Wednesday, August 10, 2011

Not Gonna Lie

I'm having a difficult time with this every other day harder workout. While injured with little hope of running, I was overjoyed to be walking. Now that I've taken those first running steps, walking seems so dull. In all honesty, that's not the only thing going through this obsessed brain.

The scale. Weight gain. The thing no one wants to admit or talk about. Truth is, I've gained a lot of weight in these seven months. That's not just the former dancer talking. It's reality. As in the reality of having to buy new clothes and actually think every day about what I put in my mouth.

Luckily, earlier in life, I avoided the disordered eating that other dancers faced. I definitely don't want to pick up negative food patterns now. I know the weight will come off. I know I have to be patient and find some balance. It's just so blasted hard.


Danni said...

Well, I gained weight in the short time I was down with a broken toe. I find it hard to lose weight. I'm trying though.

Jo Lynn said...

I hear ya! My biggest fear when I had my surgery was gaining weight. We all worry about it. People will say, "don't worry, it will come off once you are able to exercise regularly again." We don't care about then. We care about now. I get it. Your concerns are REAL.